#146 Keep Walking

How do I start? Words fail me when I am excited!

At the start of the year, I once mentioned that I felt like this year is going to be a year of tremendous moulding and growth and that it is going to be a good year. At that time I had just come out, with much spiritual bruises, bumps and cuts, from a period of trials. Things were looking good in my physical perspective and I really felt that God was about to do something great in my life.

The very next month, I fell into yet another period of dryness and trials. I could hardly believe it. I felt like what I had thought the previous month was but a lie that I had formed in my mind. But of course, when you're in the process of moulding, it feels like crap.

But now, how do I put it? God has delivered. :)

#145 Boo!

If our life is in the light, there is no fear to speak our mind.
If our Spirit is alive, there is no fear of guilt.

Looking back, I feel so far from perfect.
And yet looking back, I see the progress that I've made.

From first stepping foot on RP land to now, it's been 5 years.
But all that couldn't have happened without the entrance of Jesus.

You heard my cries and said it was alright.
You felt my joy and laughed with me.
You sensed my fear and gave me comfort.
You knew my dreams and gave me hope.
Even when my confidence was crushed, my hope in life was gone and I stubbornly ran away, You chased after me.
Though You are the Lord, You laid it all down for a fleeting moment of bliss from my life.
Truly, my life was never my own, for I never held it securely in my hands; The waves lunge and the winds battered but still You sheltered that light and said to me, "Your choice."

Thank you Lord.

#144 How Ironic!

How I wish I can grab my emotions and shake em up till they listen.

How quickly my joy turns into sadness when I look at my Facebook.

Sounds weird right? Well, when close friendships drift apart or are broken, it hurts.

But I'm not going to dwell on that, because it takes two hands to clap.

The week's been passing fast, and awesome-licious Marc & JC conducted Lesson 2 of the W506 Weekly Guitar Class! We're just two weeks from graduating with a basic understanding but I'm super nervous; A lot of practice is needed and I don't know if I can catch up to the syllabus!

And on top of that, this week marks the 3rd week of Vocal Class (Advanced), and already I'm lagging far behind. There's so much to cover in terms of styles and genres, and so much musical knowledge that I'm lacking!

Camp's been quirky, lots of weird things happening but I hope I can survive the last 4 months and 23 days!

And that's all for today. A pretty brief one because I'm tired and hungry. :(

End!

P.S. So many testimonials to sharing during CG this week but we're having an outreach. @_@

#143 ^_^

After an uninspiring day, I finally managed to catch Ultra Galaxy Legend The Movie on youtube! As such, I am officially re-inspired!

So I'll just blog a little before I expire on my warm, cozy bed, floating in aspiring dreams!

P.S. My brain's still a little kooky from the headache so pardon me if the above sentences are grammatically erroneous!

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Finally getting some taste back in my tongue after 3 days of flu. I promise I will eat something good tomorrow to make up for eating 3x hotdog bun and 3x fish fillet bun from the local bakery!

P.S.S. Ultra Galaxy Legend is an Ultraman movie! *WIN!*

#142 Random Musing Of The Day

I think Cantonese-speaking children are cute. :)

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Realised over the past 2 weeks how difficult is it to self-motivate, especially when I am someone who is easily contented and accustomed to living in the past.

Through the past few weeks God has repeated placed dreams in my mind, of a great future. The one big catch is that I trust Him and work towards it, even though from where I am right now it looks impossible.

But the qualities of a quitter can be broken, habit by habit. And that is the process I am going through right now.

Finally finished Getting Started after over a year and a half. There's still a lot more to cover!

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And so over the week I set some personal goals for end 2010:
1. Vocals: Establish a personal style for myself and build up my stage presence.
2. Acoustic Guitar: Grasp an intermediate level of mastery over the instrument so as to be able to minister effectively in personal and cell group level praise & worship.
3. Keyboard: Pick up basic keyboarding skills.


THE GAP


And what do I have right now?
1. Vocals: Just barely breaking into the different genres in the market.
2. Acoustic Guitar: Learnt only the most basic of the basic chords. (i.e. G, C, D, Em, Am7)
3. Keyboard: Does "Do Re Mi" & "London Bridge is Falling Down" on right hand count? >_<

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And on an entirely random note:

Believe - 310
Pray - 370
Love - 735
Give - 2642!

Go back to Getting Started Lesson 10 and you'll get what I mean. Go go, revisit your foundations! :D

#141 127日 安七炫 吴建豪

127日 安七炫 吴建豪

不知不觉已经那么久
我还呆在没有你的冰河之中
这些回忆不断在重播
已经冻结的爱已不会再暖和

把握很好说的沉默
我犹豫着还要不要
承认我放不开手

127日的分手就有127颗心在痛
一天一点然后会教会
我怎么能够忽略你感受
用多少眼泪你才找到离开我的理由
也许一直容忍的都是你
因为温柔而为我
犯下的错

眼中只有你美丽身影
而独自搜寻所有关于你的消息
这纵使我已经往前走
我也徘徊在所有美好往事左右

我的心已死去好久
就在你不再爱我的那一天停止跳动

127日的分手就有127颗心在痛
一天一点然后会教会
我怎么能够忽略你感受
用多少眼泪你才找到离开我的理由
也许一直容忍的都是你
因为温柔而为我
犯下的错

How'd we end up here
You know it's funny
I just miss you so much
I still remember holding you kissing you
I wish I could just see you right now lying in my arms
Baby I'm waiting for you
Please just come back to me
I love you

127日的分手留下一个好神秘的我
一天一页让时间证明
忘记你是我做的假动作
我用了多少的寂寞了解你离开的理由
我没有能挽回你的权力
除非你能了解我
心有多痛

#140 How I Feel Like Copypasta-ing

Copypasta-ing a song for today's entry and be done with it. Tempting.

Celebrated Heng Yu's birthday today. For that short 2 hours I was the crazy kid I was three years ago. How liberating. And yet a part of me feels guilty that the real me can be so childish and playful. :S

I like night walks, even if it's just a short 10min walk from the MRT station to home because the night sky and cool breeze brings a certain peace to me. How I long to float into the dark sky and be embraced by tranquil slumber.

And slumber I must, if only for tomorrow's duty. :(

#139 Been Reaaaaallllyyyyy Lazy To Update My Blog

And I don't know the reason why. :(

It's my granny's 2nd death anniversary this week.

I miss her so much...

#138 Late Sunday Whining

My mood's improved loads but my willpower is at an all time low. :(

And I'm practically *trying to* live out Charles Xavier's mutant powers; move things with my mind!

Come on you lazy body, move it, move it!

Today's service (& serving!) was awesome but I was a little brain dead from disruptive sleep the night before. When nature calls, especially at 2.30am in the morning, sleep suffers! I managed to wake up on time but somehow dilly-dallied the extra time away. RAWR! >:(

At least I got my guitar re-stringed and that's all thanks to Jun Chen! :D

#137 ^_^

Aww so cute! There was this baby in a pram on the train, playing with a bottle of mineral water. He kept dropping the bottle, then bawling bitterly. His expression immediately change when his mother picked the bottle up and returned it to him. This happened over and over again. Such a cute little thing! :D

But you know, I started thinking, if that were my kid I'd probably be frustrated. And if he were much older (say 10 years old?) I'd probably be reprimanding him. :(

My belief is this: Let a child enjoy his childhood, but don't let him become spoiled.

At this point in time though, that little boy's just a baby, so its alright. Kawaii! *_*

The Week: TL;DR Version*

The week started off crappy but soon got better. Thank God for the moulding; the process was painful but the ongoing results are looking good!

Cell group was a blast. And,

I regained the gift of smiling from my heart. :)

P.S. TL;DR = Too long; Didn't read. Basically an abridged version.