#151 Back To Camp!

Tomorrow! And I'm fighting that negative feeling inside. It's all my perspective.

3 & 1/2 more months. As Jed & Marc says, end it well.

#150 Booya!

An hour has passed
A new day begins
Life starts afresh
When the dew of dawn glistens

It should have been a hopeful thing
It should have brought a smile
But deep down inside of me
A struggle ensues

But for today I pull myself along
Tomorrow, we'll see how it goes
One thing's for sure
I'm never alone

That was the emo crap that spewed forth my mortal mind early this morning. Real early, like 1am early. I was feeling really crappy thanks to my national duty.

Many hours later, I've come to realise one thing. Nothing has changed, only my attitude.

I felt a need to pray
I felt like running away
So I took to running off
Praying my heart out of my mouth

It should have been so hard
With my head deep in the mud
But when I recalled why
The pain became a lie

Wednesday
Became play
And so Thursday
Will be okay

Come. Head on.

#149 Ever Felt Fear...

Like you are losing/about to lose something that never was yours?

It's a curious, irrational feeling.

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And yet on a seemingly parallel thought pattern I am contemplating the fear of the Lord.

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Come, take me away into the stillness of the night.
With bated breath I await the new morn.
There is no progress where there is no risk.
But yet why do I continue to pine for yesterday?

#148 Oops?

I sit here on my bed typing into my iPhone looking back at the day and feeling like a fool. It's one of those days you let loose and then realize how stupidly you've wasted a day.

This is not emo; This is me reminding myself to buck up and get out of feeling like crap.

And so I toast to the great life ahead of me in spite of how dumb I feel. Because God makes the impossible become possible. :)

I'm no hard-boiled detective but I absolutely refuse to be part of the strawberry generation.

#147 Radio Silence

Since the end of July. Because I simply didn't have the inspiration to write anything. I still don't, except to give thanks for the many blessings in my life. :)

I ain't the best kid in the universe, but help me to get closer to that!