#160 It's Been Long Since I've Had This Unshakable Feeling

The bittersweetness is unbearable. :(

A recap on the past few days. Attended cousin's (Kelvin & Huiting) wedding on Saturday. Congratulations and have a blessed wedded life and combined future ahead!

Anyway, it would have been awesome if it weren't for the fact that 3 out of 5 of us (my family) were down with the same irritating dry cough. I went to bed fine on Friday night and woke up feeling as if someone had hammered me with a sledgehammer, rubbed sandpaper in my throat and given me a laxative.

So yeah there we go, I missed the tea ceremony and arrived late for the church solemnisation. But really, the whole deal was awesome fun and I secretly, secretly wanted to have my own too!
(I guess there's where the whole feeling started.)

Attended the wedding dinner in the night feeling like a waiter thanks to my brand new bow-tie (first time!) and sleeveless vest. (another first time!) I felt like a fish out of water.

Sunday service was awesome. Nothing less. I'm really glad I went and served because when I woke with the dizziness in my head, I was really tempted to call in sick. But when you're sick, when you're down, when things don't go exactly as planned, that's where the real test of faith is. And thank God I made the choice to go! :)

#159 Lost Time

Was this really me?

God, how far I have fallen.

The passion, the burden, the love, the compassion, where did it all go?

Men do but God will undo all that isn't pure. Which part was it that I stumbled so?

#158 Glad To Hear That We Flow!

Who? Jed! He's just an "i" away from a lightsabre-wielding movie superstar! And he looks and sounds like a pastor! (Those who get it, get it!) Lets keep running this race to the finishing line!

It's interesting how we can say so much and convey so little, or say so little yet mean so much. Methinks that life is much more palatable with a tinge of suspension of belief, just like how a superhero gets his power from let's say, a can of spinach or activating an electric toothbrush. Because miracles, by their very nature, are unimaginable till they happen. Let me have my moment!

我在这个地方的原因是因为主。＼(^o^)／
虽然我还没到那个地步，请让我当您会觉得骄傲的孩子。

Yay!

#157 It's Funny

How a few wedding quotes and jokes can really change one's perspective on the institution of marriage.

But first, a song I fell in love with, in the weirdest way.

I Wanna - All American Rejects

I never thought that I was so blind
I can finally see the truth
It’s me for you
Tonight you can’t imagine that I’m by your side
Cuz it’s never gonna be the truth
Too far for you

But can you hear me say?
Don’t throw me away
And there’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

Take everything that I know you’ll break
And I give my life away
So far for you
But can you hear me say
Don’t throw me away
There’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

Tonight I’m weak
It’s just another day without you
That I can’t sleep
I gave the world away for you to
Hear me say
Don’t throw me away
There’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

All I wanna do is touch you
I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but I all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me
(x2)

I heard this song in a youtube video while watching a walkthrough for a game I had trouble completing. I just love the electric guitar and the straightforward lyrics. :)

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As I was saying, the marriage quotes. I found some that were funny, some that were biased and some that had nuggets of wisdom within. But one thing which many echoed was that marriage is a decision, one that two people make to be committed to each other in spite of their complete incompatibility. How else can one describe beings who (though possibly having similar personalities) have totally opposite thought patterns? Love may have been the flame that brought the two together, but when the flame dies down, it is the commitment that is the ember which burns slowly but steadily and reignites the flame time and again. Without the commitment, without the ember, the flame would have sputtered and died out at the conclusion of the honeymoon stage.

Which brings me to something interesting my mother once mentioned, "It is always better to find someone who loves you more than you love that person." I'll just leave the sentence to be chewed upon.
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TL;DR version: After all that, I've cut down most of my super unreasonable requirements of a spouse, most of it (not all!), and reduced it to one short, concise requirement. We must both be committed to the relationship with no option of divorce.

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Gosh, I can't believe in just 3 days of inactivity, I've screwed up so much. But that's another story for another day.

#156 The Irony

Of rehearsing and re-rehearsing through a situation time and time again, getting ready all the lines and every single step and then when you get to the real deal, you freeze up and everything falls apart.

Life's got such sardonic humour. :S

How I'd love to say things right, just this once.