It's okay to feel under the weather.
It's okay to be at a loss & doubt so many things.
It's okay to want to run away from the struggles that seem to swallow you whole.
It's okay that things don't go your way.
It's okay to feel emotions, however negative.
It's important to accept them too.
Just don't give up.
When you feel that things are not in control, remember that 10% of what happens, happens. 90% of the equation is determined by your reaction or response.
Choose, react to your emotions, or respond proactively?
When you feel like it's someone else's problem or fault, stop & think. If so, where are you in the equation? Or are you really just being taken for a ride? Can't be, right? Man up, own up, take responsibility.
When you feel like its spilling over to every other area of your life, ask yourself, what has hair loss talk got to do with your siblings? Absolutely nothing! Don't let it affect the other areas. Leave the office struggles in the office, the CG problems in the CG, the family issues within the family.
When you feel as if the problem "has always been there & will continue to be there", think again! People are people with emotions. People are also dynamic. We change whether for good or for bad. Either way we change. Choose the right change. Choose to believe in the goodness of others. Never forget that people never started off wanting to do bad things or e bad people. They're just humans who:
1. Are looking for a better life & perceive their choice at that moment is the best way to go.
2. Just want to get out of a situation that seems to overwhelm them.
But Wind, you know you have 90% of the control & you have ownership of your issues, you cannot let them spill over but solve them one at a time & you know nothing lasts forever. Only God does.
Now fight on, for your own sake, for the sake of the family, friends & cell group you love. You know you do, no matter how painful it seems deep down. & show more appreciation for the people around you; like you, they suffer. A smile is always welcome. You owe that to them, for the people who come & want to stay, no matter how you might perceive them at any point in time. Because that is how you would wish to be perceived.
Last of all, most importantly, don't forget that no matter who else claims otherwise, God loves you more than you can ever imagine & conceive in your mind. You feel you've failed Him so many times but He hasn't given up. Because He made you just the way you are & He knows every single step you take. He's not fine with sin but He's fine with you going through the process of pain, suffering & struggling because He knows that one day, you will be the child He has always envisioned from before the beginning of time you will become.
So fight on. Billions of people in the world & they have not given up, so why should you?
