When Would It Be Time To Persevere & When Would It Be Time To Call It Quits?

It is now June, 6 months from the start of the year.

It's been 6 plus years; how have I grown? How has things changed for the better?

Can't say I haven't grown but can't say the pace is acceptable either, going through the same old same old year after year.

Then again, have we all gotten closer or have we all drifted further? Makes me wonder if things are worth the fight, or wait.

Where is the spirit of excellence? Where are we going as a community? Are we open to constructive criticism or must everything be sugar-coated?

Maybe I've been expecting too much. Maybe I should really put my priorities elsewhere.

It's really beyond me to give any more than I have; do we even accord each other the basic respect of replying?

It's tiring beating the air, going round & round the bush.

I can't live with pointless conversations & aimless small talk. I can't smile & pretend everything is all right any longer.

Or must we only connect when someone is down? I can't feel anything beyond exasperation & frustration.

Sure feels like its too late & we're just beating the dead horse.

Dear God, help me. If it is me, let me know. If otherwise, let me know what I can do.

But God, You have everything planned. Help me see beyond the natural.

Lead me to the Rock that is higher than I.