#11 The Past Week

Lots of thoughts rushed through my mind as I thought back on the week's passing;

Some hopeful, some ignoble, some happy, others not so.

But the one thing that came through was this; the moment I let down my guard, I found myself spiraling back into the pit I crawled out before. I'm talking about about sin. About laziness, about trying to escape from the reality of my problems, about putting on a brave front, about not doing my best at work.

It may not seem significant to any other. But that's just how quirky my mind is.

In brokenness I went back to seek Him. Guilt, anguish over my lack of self-discipline, I released it all.

But at what cost? The week feels wasted.

May I never live another week like that.

John 5:8 Then Jesus said to him, "Get up! Pick up your mat and walk."

And so I walked. Out of that pit once more.

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Listening to songs on my laptop brings back interesting thoughts. I'm addicted to music; I mentally associate each familiar piece with a situation, an incident, be it funny, sad, crazy or just pure weird.

Love songs; they bring such a torrid rush of emotions. Bittersweet. Magical even.


Things to be grateful:
1. Concern from my boss and a free 1/2 day off to rest.
2. Concern from friends who check on me; very much appreciated! :)
3. The visit back to Hope, it was as much an enjoyable day as it was a cathartic experience.
4. Old HopeRP brothers and sisters slowly coming back together as one. Just a bit more!
5. For the big plan of which I'm a part of.