#23 Watching Me From Myself

I don't ever want to do that anymore, at least not excessively, not consciously so. Because it just drags me down the mud. A pointless go-around that comes full circle into self-pity.

And so I will talk about the past, the present and the future in a more positive note. If not all the time, at least for one post.

Yesterday was amazing. I've always thought I'd be fine seeing familiar faces and so when I accepted the invitation to Zephanie's birthday celebration yesterday, I was looking to a more positive start.

But I guess you can't just erase that distance in spite of it being unintentionally created. I'm talking about an uneasiness meeting Hopies since leaving Hope.

When I reached the function room, I was caught winded by the rising feeling of uncertainty. Fast forward to the end, things were very much better. Because just as you can't erase that distance, so can you not erase the memories that have been made going through it all.

I'm not good with words when it comes to expressing my thanks over the efforts to make me feel more comfortable. So this is as big a thank you I can muster. I only hope it is enough. :)

Thanks Pei Xin, Zephanie, Donald, Nehemiah, Jen, Xueting, Jenny, Jiamin and the few others I got to know there. Sorry if I don't remember your names.

I don't regret ever going to Hope, knowing God and serving, in spite of the brevity of the moment.

In fact I'm glad people are doing well. It really was a surprise hearing about Richard and Jolene.

Through it all, I wish well for Hope RP.

I'm happy where I am, but I'm even more happy hearing about Hope. :)