#19 I'd Like

For greater mental fortitude.

Sometimes I wonder why I have so little to share at times, yet so much to give at others.

Take for example tonight. Mom asked me if I could help out with the laundry. On other days, I'd do it without much thought. Today though, there was much inner strife within. I desperately wanted to just do it to honour my parents (sometimes, I do enjoy doing the laundry, it being a break from staring at the computer), and yet deep down there was this feeling of being totally spent emotionally.

I'd love to be more of a giver, but tonight I find that I have little left to provide.

And deep down I claw mentally at mundane things, at "my" time, "my" freedom, "my" finances, knowing that despite it all, nothing's really mine.

But yet music still soothes my troubled psyche.

For the moment.

如果爱 张学友

每个人 都想明白
谁是自己生命不该错过的真爱
特别在午夜醒来 更是会感慨
心动埋怨还有不能释怀
都是因为你触碰了爱

如果这就是爱
再转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤 就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉

哦爱 在回忆里总是那么明白
困惑的心 流过的泪
还有数不清黑夜等待
如果这就是爱

如果你 当时明白
后来的生命里是快乐还是悲哀
特别在夜深人静时想起未来
是否能平静不会想现在
只是因为你拥有了爱

如果这就是爱
再转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤 就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉

哦爱 在回忆里总是那么明白
困惑的心 流过的泪
还有数不清黑夜等待

如果这就是爱
如果这就是爱