#100 Lets Talk About Grace

I feel really blessed and fortunate that throughout all my life, there has been an endless covering of grace upon my life, in that I have always been rescued time and again from some unspeakable, irreversible, destiny-changing calamity. No doubt, I've been in hot soup so many times. Yet at the last possible moment, it seems miracles happen and here I am, years later, in one piece (sans one wisdom teeth, if I may add, tongue-in-cheek).

And today, I feel even more blessed, in that though I'm physically tired, I have come to be aware of certain thing (for lack of a better description). I have sensed that just as in the past weeks I have been uplifted and moulded, so in the future weeks ahead there will be trials that I will face, situations that I have struggled with my own strength and ultimately ran away tail between my legs and spirit crushed. Just a while ago while taking a shower, the parable of talents came to me, and showed me the things in my life, that I have to stay responsible and be a good steward of. It's kind of terrifying for as an individual who's not too hard-working, responsible or bright (I'm not putting down myself, but acknowledging my weaknesses, which I will in due time, strengthen). But I know that God is with me. :)

And who would have thought ten years ago that a decade later, a grown-up (well, almost) Windez has come to love and enjoy singing in such a extent that I do now? I mean, I could barely pitch better than a rooster, or a tabby cat in heat! And now I have the gift of being able to make more than just joyful noise. I thank the Lord for that.

And today I really feel the need to pray for energy in my body. For someone who can and has spent literally 24 hours at one go at his computer at home, travelling around and meeting people to encourage and spread joy is really not something natural. I dare say I've worked harder in the last 1 week than I have in the whole of last month! That's how lazy I was. But I believe and confess that I will be changed permanently.

And a shout-out to Zong Han, who probably doesn't read my blog, for he has enough troubles and things on his mind, but still sacrifices his time and effort for me, and to regard me as a good friend in his words, this is really something that touches me. I mean, honestly, I am nothing, but thanks bro, and you know you are appreciated. Whatever you face I will pray for you, in tongues if I cannot do so in words. You have been a pillar of strength and encouragement, as well as a voice of reason in times of my lack of foresight.

And I thank God for my family. We aren't the best, but we will do our best.

Oh well, so much more to say, so little time to do so. In any case, I pray You have compassion upon me.

Edit: So many "And". How I wish I put more :)